A second of..

Its only need a second to walk away..

But it likes a whole life to get u out of my mind.

Months has passed.. Its so easy at the beginning.. 

But it's getting hard after sometimes..

I know that we are with somebody else that we have to love like we did.. Loving each other??

But then get realized that the mind still haunted me.. Yeahh.. U still be the person who I....

Like or dislike

I like the way we talk..

I like the way we laugh..

Pray, Trust and Hope

God loves u..

God loves us..

Realized all the blessing that He gives u till today..

Dont give up, cos its not the end..

Please wait patiently till the day of 15th next month.

You are loved my dear..

Please be strong inside and outside..

If it is belongs to u, God will lead his way to u at the end..

Pray, Trust and Hope..

All you need to do is waiting His answer with FAITH..

Let it go

Note for myself!!!

Just don't!!

Don't..

Just don't!!

Don't fall in love with me just because of...

We met for no reason..

Sharing about your life and mine..

Im just too afraid that man can not only be friend with a woman.. 

Cos u r not single, anyway..

Just dont yaaa...

Midweek blessed

Am I giving up?

Nope..

I have faith!!

If it belongs to me so God will give it to me!!

If not, it belongs to others then!

And i wont regret for the moments that we've spent together.

Let God fight for my battle then!!

I do my part ya..

The rest, it's Your part God..

I wont ruin my thought..

Thank you for another blessed day on earth!!

Your happiness is mine also..

When someone happiness is become my happiness..

A simple cake with my praying candle..

And seeing your happiness on your face..

I'm so gratefull for this moment which God still grant for us.. 

Thank you Lord for this opportunity..

I hope it won't be the last for us..

It's all up to You now..

Nov 24

It's look like a year ago.. 

In the same date..

Heavy raining outside..

I was struggling to buy you something last year, using my bike and raining coat.. Those were to make a special day of yours..

But today, one year after..

I'm not doing anything nor preparing..

It's just a happy day for me.. 

Yes, it's a happy day for me.. For no reason..

He just turn out my heart into a happy mood..

I call it, Joy..

Thanks Jesus...

You are above of all in this world..

Grey

Where are we now?

Between white and black..

Sitting on the grey..

What do u want from me?

Whatever

Gw cuma punya 2 tangan..
Ga sanggup nutupin mulut sekian banyak mulut yg ngebicarain tentang hidup gw..
2 tangan itu gw pake buat nutupin kuping gw sendiri aja..
Simple..

Intinya sih, gw ga peduli orang ngomong apa tentang gw.. mau jelek ya silahkan.. mau bagus ya silahkan..
Whatever..
Kan loe cuma ngeliat dari kulit luarnya doang..
Yg tau tentang hidup gw ya gw..

Kalo loe ga suka.. ya silahkan..
Monggo di unshare..
Ga ribet ribet amat deh..

Kalo loe ngomongin gw.. itu kan tandanya loe masih inget gw.. ada "kasih" yg terlontar dr hati loe, even itu dalam bentuk negatif.. gpp kok.. "Kasih" yg sampe ke gw pasti positif..

Semakin banyak yg ngomongin.. gw semakin blessed kok.. "I do believe it"..

sooo... whatever..
Im happy as I am..
Makasiii..

Another blesses on Feb 2014

I was asked to Him to make my days busy..
And its granted..
buuutt.. For sure i cant do all these things by my own.. and luckily He always give me accompanion.. random..
Owhhh.. how great my Lord then..

This is a project of mine..
another one step ahead for myself..
Eventually.. when it finish, a big grin will covers on my face..

Thank u for my friends who supporting me..
Thank u for your help, times, effort.
Thank u Lord..
I know.. I'm blessed..

I do love you

I was mad..
Yes, I did..
But.. blood say no..
I do love them..
Yes, I do..

Hei universe..
Please take care of them..
And please take care of me too when no one can do it..

I was dreaming.. yes, I did..
That was not a good dream..
Maybe I should give them some warning..
Like I did it to myself..
But maybe these are the path of ours..
No way to run.. no place to hide..
We must run through these..

Get well soon my brother..
Get well soon my father..
Get well soon novanopha..
Get relief my uncle..
Be happy my lovely Faiz in heaven..
Get well soon the boy next to me..
Get well soon my ex..

I do love you all..

Jan14.. universe is crying..
Universe is in sorrow..
Please be ended soon..

Im giving up

It aint easy..
It aint easy..
But I believe I CAN..

The brain is not designed to do this stuff..
Starting to get the right person who can be believed..
Comparing with..
Cherry pick..

Design..
Budget..
And have no one to be talked to..
I need a pa.. a ma.. in the name of fam..
It aint easy..

I almost give up..

A ma..
Ur daughter is big enough.. but not that big..
Feel so small.. only a dot..
A ma..
A ma..
I need your help..
I do need someone help..
Can u talk to a pa or to the son of yours?
Im giving up to talk to..

A ma.. a ma..
Im sorry to call u everytime when this thing come to my head..

Who gonna look after me?
I am standing alone..
Am I that strong?
Its too windy.. too tough to pass on..

Im giving up..

Bapa

Ada rasa yang bergejolak..
Ada asa yang masih tertinggal..

Sebaris kalimat yang kerap terucap.. memohonkan hanya kehadirat Sang Pencipta..

Dalam sesak ia bergumul..
Dalam cinta ia berharap..

Bapa..Bapa.. begitulah ia memanggilMu..

2014

Dear 2014..

Can I get my family back?

Simple

Im falling in love with..
Your heart..
Your tough..
Your smile..
Your faithfull..
Your hardworks..
Your simplicity..
Your humble..
And absolutely with your love either..

Those are not because who you are or where you'r from neither what you have..

Simple..

Cinta

Sakit adalah bagian yang tak mungkin terelakan dari cinta..
Cinta tak membuatmu sakit..
Tapi sikap dan kata-kata yang buruk adalah salah satu hal yang mencoreng cinta itu..
Kadang kamu terlalu takut mencintai seseorang hingga tak sadar kamu melukainya..
Melukainya dengan pertahananmu yang begitu tinggi..
Dan saat kamu menyadarinya..ternyata benteng pertahananmu sungguh tak diperlukan dalam mencintai seseorang..
Hal itu hanya akan melukai dirimu kelak atau hari ini..

Mencintai seseorang butuh proses..
Untuk recovery dari kesakitanmu yang lalupun butuh waktu..
Karena hati yang memegang peranan dalam cinta..bukan logika..

Dalam kepasrahan ada jalan..
Disaat kau meragukan segala sesuatu.. justru saat itu Dia membukakan jalan bagimu..
Don't push anything too hard..
Pray and let God do the rest..
Kan kamu udah minta ke Dia..
Pasti didengar.. tapi mungkin jawabannya berbeda dari harapanmu..

Setelah hujan pasti ada pelangi..
Dan tentunya kamu menunggu pelangimu hadir..
Mungkin belum musimnya saja untukmu..
Kali ini kamu masih berhujan2 ria..
Masih berselubung awan hitam..

Amien..

*on my 2nd spirit solo trip
Masih di bandara.. duduk manis sendirian..
Merindukan sahabat2 tercinta di jakarta dan tentunya merindukan kamu!!!
And in d middle of conversation with my precious bff ever.. thanks for everything mate..!! Love u more and more..

Tajam

Seribu kata dapat terlontar.. mengiris segenap telinga yang mendengar.. dan tak dapat menariknya kembali.. tajam menyayat..
Seribu maaf yang terucap tak jua mengobati hati yang kadung terluka..
Hanya ada sesal yang selalu datang terlambat..

Sekotak harapan

Sekotak harapan..
Disanalah kelak aku berada..
Menghabiskan waktu..
Bersama canda, bahagia, cinta, harapan dan masa depan..
Tak luput dari rintangan dan duka..
Dalam waktu yang tak kan berputar kembali..

Bila detik ini tak berpenghuni..
Kelak kita yang akan mengisinya..
Dalam genggaman ber-asa..

Tak akan sendiri..
Ruang itu akan memiliki gelaknya sendiri..
Dalam riuh tawa kita..

*menghitung hari.. ;)

Another grace..

Another grace..
Another blesses..
Another love..
You showers me with abundance love..
It's called "blessed"
And I can't stop saying "gratefull"..

The way we move..
The way we laugh..
The way we share..
The way we pray..
The way we love..
The way you be patient of my tough..

And I thank God for your existence..
Thank to your mom that she delivered you..
Thank to your parents for the way they treat you as their child..
Thank to my besties for her wedding.. it's not called coincidence.. it's called "His path"..

We pray for us..
I know we put our faith on us.
Let us made the best we can do.. and believe  God that He'll do His part..

Thank you my #gorillacoklat..